Friday, March 21, 2025

Mod. Malaise

  

Old Chinaman at the Lavender stop in a not-so-new green tee with mainly large Chinese characters. Too many, far too many you would have thought for a translation of the English at his waist:
PROHIBIT ANXIETY
Perhaps the modern illness needed quite a bit of the old form to put properly.
Difficult task fully and immediately conceded by the man. And more strong agreement again at the suggestion that such a feat could possibly be pulled off precisely here in this Republic—A Fine City, as other ambulant billboard tees routinely mocked.
Definitely. Definitely.
The bus was too quick for further exchange.


The Albino

 

Late afternoon on Jalan Sultan the Chinese albino had it about right—a world of horror and nothing else, unable to be endured. Eyes clenched tight, shielding arm raised high and the other feeling his way along the shopfronts. It was torture right enough, the man likely knowing only the half of it. The rain had come down almost without cease the last 48 hours, puffer jacket needed against the aircon in the library and Helen’s big payung, which even so was unable to protect the cuffs of the trousers. There was hardly a squeak of light, yet the poor man was dreadfully assailed. One hundred the number of casualties in the renewed bombing in Gaza according to the initial reports, climbing in increments from there into the 2- 3- & 400s. Zainuddin fwd-ed a member of the Irish Parliament it must have been crying out against the inhumanity. For those who did not know such devastations from their own sources, their own race memory, the new-reports & photos could be stomached for many, many months more, years in fact.



Monday, March 17, 2025

Confrontation

 


There were too many dead birds on the roads these past days, one or two of them steamrolled horribly flat. (Last week a foreign worker was killed by a steamroller in Carpmael Road, 100m along from the house.) On one of the paths one bird looked an unnatural or desecrated death of the kind reported from battlefields, rats or possibly cats the only explanation. And that was before the news-reports from NSW of large numbers of corellas dead and dying in Newcastle, poisoning suspected by farmers, presumably. The Kursk casualties late afternoon left only poor imagining; “horror movie” one of the witnesses resorted to in his description to the BBC. Then on top of everything the little Arab kid with her older sister on the bus returning from town, choking her sobs and hiding her face by turns. There was silent freak gaping at the sister when the latter came over beside her. Adjacent the mother remained fixed on her phone, not neglectful, only the Arab Tiger form. The child couldn’t be helped—that was the truth of hardship and despair, even from the get-go. You hide it if nothing else, bite down on it, get used to it.








Friday, March 7, 2025

Publication news: Attention! - Airplane Reading

 

Hallo all


Another short of mine has just been published in the States, delivering again some aerophobia, with couple other matters intermixed.

Free on the site here—





All best
Pavle






Sunday, March 2, 2025

Beyond Blue (mid-00s)

From the files: Beyond Blue dates from the mid-naughts


 

 

Late morning the radio omitted the cause of the out-bound crawl, reporting it as traffic info.

Police Response van angled, lights flashing. Other vehicles were clustered round. The break-down truck had arrived first, before it was realised what was happening. In the pass the central figure was sighted last. 

The other emergency vehicles had pulled up short, not encroaching. Red stanchions placed in line.

            In his drab clothing the chap sat on the top-rail looking out like a fisherman awaiting his catch. Back turned on all the slowing traffic, the police & flashing lights, as if none of that had anything to do with him. 

Jaw and fleshy jowls, unshaved. The man half-turned in profile. 

            Half an hour later surveying the wares at the Salvos in Inkerman Street two reports arrived. Through the head-phones the chaps in the Studio were keeping a sharp ear out for further bulletins. As the updates proceeded there developed a kind of tease of insider knowledge. Attentive listeners would have been alerted. No mention of smash, pile-up, tanker over-turned, nothing.

            With the short banking of traffic at the time the man could not have been sitting long. One of the other cars near the police van must have been his own.

            Pics from the passing motorists proved irresistible, especially good from the passenger seat. The 40km helped.

            Being prior to the soc. media, despite the public interest the footage wouldn’t be used. That well-known platform on one of the major arterials in the city could not be advertised. Were the pictures marketable the price of the man, his thick thighs, looking across at the cops and out to the bay, dangling, a bidding war might have been conducted.

When the bridge collapsed in the 70s some lucky men had ridden the concrete down.

            Wide sky and the bay, with the masts of the yachts in Willy. The chap would not have been looking down at the river for the half hour. 

Clear bright sky and still. To date the Spring hadn’t produced many of those windless days. The wind-socks at the football grounds would have hung limp. Otherwise the man could not have sat so long.

            Fishing him out of the slime was a gruesome thought.

            Sittin’ on the dock o’ the bay. 

            Pool-side kind of aspect. Though a chap of that sort would hardly have one of those at home.

            Standing on the rail the matter would have been clear in the first instant. Sitting as he did, the import had failed for a second. Such untroubled ease completely deceived.

            The police on the roadway were young lads. Before the specialists arrived they needed to cope meantime.

            Monday late morning. Jobless most likely. Shaggy-haired, dark tee, nondescript. The well-to-do would not choose such a place. Something more private and discrete for them.

            Fine and clear. Could a man do such a thing in rain or a squall? Those days those kind of blues were not so bad, perhaps. Bright sunny days were the worst downers.

            The posture suggested he might be talked round, loose-limbed like that. There might be a chance of survival too if he missed the piers. More than a few had been fished out of the river downstream. Once there was a report of a fisherman at the Power Station snagging one.

            Dying of fright a lot of them before they hit the bottom, the medical people suggested. Same as in war. 

            Ten minutes at least it had lasted. The man would have tired. With his weight he appeared to have sagged even in the brief pass.

            A good deal of talk would be needed to allow someone to get close enough. For the young lads it may have been wise to refrain from engaging unless drawn.

            After half an hour’s sitting the man could not have let himself slide away. Doers don’t delay like that.

 

 

            West Gate, Melbourne

 

 

 

NB. Beyond Blue is an Australian help service.