Friday, March 21, 2025

Mod. Malaise

  

Old Chinaman at the Lavender stop in a not-so-new green tee with mainly large Chinese characters. Too many, far too many you would have thought for a translation of the English at his waist:
PROHIBIT ANXIETY
Perhaps the modern illness needed quite a bit of the old form to put properly.
Difficult task fully and immediately conceded by the man. And more strong agreement again at the suggestion that such a feat could possibly be pulled off precisely here in this Republic—A Fine City, as other ambulant billboard tees routinely mocked.
Definitely. Definitely.
The bus was too quick for further exchange.


The Albino

 

Late afternoon on Jalan Sultan the Chinese albino had it about right—a world of horror and nothing else, unable to be endured. Eyes clenched tight, shielding arm raised high and the other feeling his way along the shopfronts. It was torture right enough, the man likely knowing only the half of it. The rain had come down almost without cease the last 48 hours, puffer jacket needed against the aircon in the library and Helen’s big payung, which even so was unable to protect the cuffs of the trousers. There was hardly a squeak of light, yet the poor man was dreadfully assailed. One hundred the number of casualties in the renewed bombing in Gaza according to the initial reports, climbing in increments from there into the 2- 3- & 400s. Zainuddin fwd-ed a member of the Irish Parliament it must have been crying out against the inhumanity. For those who did not know such devastations from their own sources, their own race memory, the new-reports & photos could be stomached for many, many months more, years in fact.



Monday, March 17, 2025

Confrontation

 


There were too many dead birds on the roads these past days, one or two of them steamrolled horribly flat. (Last week a foreign worker was killed by a steamroller in Carpmael Road, 100m along.) On one of the paths one bird looked an unnatural or desecrated death of the kind reported from battlefields, rats or possibly cats the only answer. And that was before the news-reports from NSW of large numbers of corellas dead and dying in Newcastle, poisoning suspected by farmers, presumably. The Kursk casualties late afternoon left only poor imagining; “horror movie” one of the witnesses resorted to in the BBC report. Then on top of everything the little Arab kid with her older sister on the bus returning from town, choking her sobs and hiding her face by turns. There was silent freak gaping at the sister when the latter came over beside her. Adjacent the mother remained fixed on her phone, not neglectful, only the Arab Tiger form. The child couldn’t be helped—that was the truth of hardship and despair, even from the get-go. You hide it if nothing else, bite down on it, get used to it.





Friday, March 7, 2025

Publication news: Attention! - Airplane Reading

 

Hallo all


Another short of mine has just been published in the States, delivering again some aerophobia, with couple other matters intermixed.

Free on the site here—





All best
Pavle






Wednesday, March 5, 2025

Slovenian Slalom


 

 

Spied the robot from the concourse wending through the tables, the blue striped FT on the bench. Despite which, onward through the doors. Nadia had long been boycotting Starbs, along with Amazon and the others. Musta been years walking past without setting foot. For a minute it seemed the paper cup was standard and unavoidable, on every table. In fact if you asked specially at counter the other could be provided, specially. (There may have been a net thing about germs after machine washing.) Mr T. T. tutup again and Sarah’s tea counter only opened at 11. The OneKM outlet’s morgue emptiness couldn’t be stomached, on the passes to the burek indoors the classic rock covers & prairie ballads were still on high rotation. Better the neat & shiny eager beaver grand-sons & daughters of coolies at PLQ. $6.80 now for the small. Stupendous what can go down without a blink. Imagine inventing a place like that on a drawing board 40-50 years back. Even a god allowing his creation freewill would pull down the columns here. Facing them all, while they preferred looking into the body of the hall. And don’t forget, replicated by the tens of thousands all points of the compass. Heavy security in Africa, the mid-East and other corners. G. Serai was a 6-7min. walk away, during Ramadan all church/mosque mouse quiet. The older FT in blue was the only other white in attendance; bananas otherwise... No. Hang on. Adjacent was a young IT in tee working from home today. (Even in a condo it was tough solo on the top.) You once bought yourself one of those belts with the stainless buckle. Mid-30s Chin biz guys behaving like granddads. Oh! Another older FT joining, dressed casual by his wife. Closing quart past 9, you understand every last one of the tables will shortly be occupied and many disappointed. Certainly there was no presumption of sharing here. You got in early, lucky you. (SG had the highest saturation McDs per capita on the planet, and Starbs could not be far behind.) 5 & one ½ jam did it overnight, tossing & turning after dawn, sweating Athens, Macedonia & Serbia. Robot delivers to the elder lady at the bar, where there was beer on tap and cocktails presumably. Blog hammering continues apace, nineteen & one half dozen hits yester. Theft of some kind odd kind, when if they wanted they could collect the entire archive with a couple swipes, Wahyu suggested. Not productive of SG to take a stronger stance against Israel, according to the usefully Muslim Assis. Min. for For. Affairs on CNA. Might be the modest quiet guy who takes an occasional teh at Sarah with his wife. Friggin’ breathing’ down the neck this nasty little tool, whisper-swishing quiet. Feelin’ the strength of Ned Ludd big time in the righteous right arm. The Chin boys are the exception; all others solitary and good proportion not getting much lovin’, by the looks. (Plummeting birth rates continued, no one could explain it in this clean island paradise.) Your own pen & paper creates one heck of a sight too, mind, the kids roundabout masking their astonishment. What would all those tops be worth at point of purchase, $50k? If the lashes moseying up thought she might get lucky with an old white For. Talent she’s badly overplayed her cards, like greenhorn Zelensky. Poor sweet hon. Invariably the persiflage is wafer thin here and carried nervously, esp. before the eyes of the whites. Humanity! Incapable of rescue! Hegarty with the tattoos beneath his suits—veteran of the tanks steamrolling the enemy during Dessert Storm—has sided with China, N. Korea and someone else at the UN for reservations on the aggressor over in the East. 30-40 casualties from an overnight strike on a Ukrainian military training ground, ninety plus injured. Pretty remarkable having T. the one to bleed for all that appalling loss of life. (Biden had famously been ready to fight to the last Ukrainian.) In the afternoon finally decided to hit BBC highlights on the speech. Long, long lead time before he got to the podium, like the big sports, players emerging from the dugouts. Panning over the crowd, Vance & Mel. Finally, finally, the conquering hero. Shakes, hugs, pats, air kisses. In his opening acknowledgments the First Lady was given her big, BIG dues. Clapclapclapping. That mouth had never been revealed like that before, post box slot, parcel size. Fitting AAA dental. Gee, that was some trap. Don’s regular duck bill couldn’t hold a candle. As the lady  brightened her smile the silver eye-liner gleamed like mercury. Really great shape; dieting & anxiety had worked a treat. Were there another global leader like her husband he would have complimented her; if he was not married asking her to cocktails in his room. Guy had studied his speech; L/R swinging like a metronome again. Nothing like it. Seen nothing like it. Spectacular. In the short 6 weeks surpassed all previous records. Minor heckling; placards; one guy ejected. (In the Serbian parliament the day before smoke bombs had been discharged by the Opposition.) Our Mel how many years there now, 18-19? Did he have it off with some gal while she was in hospital delivering, or was that some guy in cabinet. Her folks in a short snippet when they were fast tracked for the Green Cards. Great people. Decent & good. Father older than his son-in-law, wasn’t it? Bald patch barely in evidence. The gal must stop  sometimes casting back to the first few years, doing the rounds putting out in the big city; the big moment, her lucky break. She musta handled it just right.



Sunday, March 2, 2025

Beyond Blue (mid-00s)

From the files: Beyond Blue dates from the mid-naughts


 

 

Late morning the radio omitted the cause of the out-bound crawl, reporting it as traffic info.

Police Response van angled, lights flashing. Other vehicles were clustered round. The break-down truck had arrived first, before it was realised what was happening. In the pass the central figure was sighted last. 

The other emergency vehicles had pulled up short, not encroaching. Red stanchions placed in line.

            In his drab clothing the chap sat on the top-rail looking out like a fisherman awaiting his catch. Back turned on all the slowing traffic, the police & flashing lights, as if none of that had anything to do with him. 

Jaw and fleshy jowls, unshaved. The man half-turned in profile. 

            Half an hour later surveying the wares at the Salvos in Inkerman Street two reports arrived. Through the head-phones the chaps in the Studio were keeping a sharp ear out for further bulletins. As the updates proceeded there developed a kind of tease of insider knowledge. Attentive listeners would have been alerted. No mention of smash, pile-up, tanker over-turned, nothing.

            With the short banking of traffic at the time the man could not have been sitting long. One of the other cars near the police van must have been his own.

            Pics from the passing motorists proved irresistible, especially good from the passenger seat. The 40km helped.

            Being prior to the soc. media, despite the public interest the footage wouldn’t be used. That well-known platform on one of the major arterials in the city could not be advertised. Were the pictures marketable the price of the man, his thick thighs, looking across at the cops and out to the bay, dangling, a bidding war might have been conducted.

When the bridge collapsed in the 70s some lucky men had ridden the concrete down.

            Wide sky and the bay, with the masts of the yachts in Willy. The chap would not have been looking down at the river for the half hour. 

Clear bright sky and still. To date the Spring hadn’t produced many of those windless days. The wind-socks at the football grounds would have hung limp. Otherwise the man could not have sat so long.

            Fishing him out of the slime was a gruesome thought.

            Sittin’ on the dock o’ the bay. 

            Pool-side kind of aspect. Though a chap of that sort would hardly have one of those at home.

            Standing on the rail the matter would have been clear in the first instant. Sitting as he did, the import had failed for a second. Such untroubled ease completely deceived.

            The police on the roadway were young lads. Before the specialists arrived they needed to cope meantime.

            Monday late morning. Jobless most likely. Shaggy-haired, dark tee, nondescript. The well-to-do would not choose such a place. Something more private and discrete for them.

            Fine and clear. Could a man do such a thing in rain or a squall? Those days those kind of blues were not so bad, perhaps. Bright sunny days were the worst downers.

            The posture suggested he might be talked round, loose-limbed like that. There might be a chance of survival too if he missed the piers. More than a few had been fished out of the river downstream. Once there was a report of a fisherman at the Power Station snagging one.

            Dying of fright a lot of them before they hit the bottom, the medical people suggested. Same as in war. 

            Ten minutes at least it had lasted. The man would have tired. With his weight he appeared to have sagged even in the brief pass.

            A good deal of talk would be needed to allow someone to get close enough. For the young lads it may have been wise to refrain from engaging unless drawn.

            After half an hour’s sitting the man could not have let himself slide away. Doers don’t delay like that.

 

 

            West Gate, Melbourne

 

 

 

NB. Beyond Blue is an Australian help service.












 




Saturday, February 22, 2025

Taking Wing (Mar25 update)


Rather a sight this young woman out on the paving by Block 7. On the return from supper it was nearing 9. Some fun with a drone was the initial thought. Chinese female of that age, alone at that hour, amusing herself with those infernal killing machines? They did love innovation here, anything for new frontiers, frictionless whatnot. Truth to tell, there had not been any deployment of those particular contraptions here, whether for amusement or anything else… Well, ten odd years ago on the shores of Bedok Reservoir a group of young men had been encountered sporting with something that we struggled to identify at the time. When approached here at the Haig the lass became startled, alarmed in fact and began moving off to the sheltered walkway. Oh! No! Lassie. An elderly pair had stopped a few meters off, ready to offer aid. From the courtyard of the house a paper plane was eventually sighted. Anything other would not have drawn the observer back. It was doubtful the woman had noticed the first pass, so engrossed was she. Slowly she paused in her retreat and the old fogeys got themselves off. Instructions online had guided the gal, but something was wrong here. The plane she had created was supposed to boomerang-like circle a little way out and duly return to her. Not the simple version that shot out in a straight line 10-12 meters, before nose-diving to the ground. The more complex other, with a particular wing fold, would make a short half circle, then without much loss of altitude, obediently return to hand. At school some of the boys had mastered the art. The lady’s attempt was inadequate somehow, hardly in fact able to launch on the air at all. Some little wind associated with this NW monsoon was giving trouble too. Friday mid-eve and getting on. Presumably the woman lived in one of the blocks, or else the landed properties on our side. There was no one in her orbit who had taken a fancy in this aeronautical interest. No dog or cat had been brought along for company. Doubtful there were children at home. It was impossible for the scribe to offer real fellowship, much less perform meaningful rescue; the stars were mis-aligned. (There were never any visible in Singaporean night skies; the lack was impossible to gauge properly.) Here was only the usual resort next morning, falling far short and negligible of course; in some ways like a mention in prayer. In early teens one had fairly worn oneself out bedside at night attempting to recall all who were in need of succour—the household, neighbours, the teacher in the hospital. The German lady in the Vernon Street post office was recalled in this context, for some particular struggle now forgotten. In his late-70s Zainuddin reported the very same problem currently for his good self.