Wednesday, May 19, 2021

Without Sting


The Other Al


Al went off to a better place today. To the no place maybe.

Cousin Barry called couple minutes after he passed, shortly after 3pm. I went over and sat with him at the bedside, door closed, low light, just the 2/3 of us for a couple hours.

Barry was brilliant, full of feeling & fine reminiscence. Damn beautiful.

No pain throughout in this case, all well-managed. The Filipinas & Indians were delightful. They were not proper nurses, but that native inner feeling was precious. One Oz gal attendant apparently cried when Baz told her Al wasn't going to make it through the day. Baz knew he said. No one told him. Remarkable kinda guy. Very striking.

Sad. But a release. Baz talked to him about Robert Johnson's Crossroads. Gotta get offa the freight train.


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Salam/shanti

P

 

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Re: The Other Al

 

Yep. That’s it.

Really very fitting end. He wasn’t for it any more. No point.

Nothing ugly. Not even the shrunken body and parchment face there with us on the bed. I had my foot up on the corner of the footboard listening to Baz. Smooth. Baz enjoyed the receptive ear.

Fine farewell.

Salam/shanti

P

 

 

 

 

G. and I had had another Alan pass the year before. This Al G. had not really known, although he had been properly struck by him at a couple of meetings. By the solitariness he noticed and perhaps some understanding he could not himself become acquainted with a man like that.

           Late night there was no energy to tell more. G. had needed to be told, however, not have the matter left over for the next day. We had talked about the situation in Carlton over dinner a few days before.

            Cousin Baz was a godsend, as he had been when it became necessary to move Al outta the back bungalow at Bab’s shortly before the departure for overseas. Barry had immediately accepted him at his Werribee house, no rent involved.

            Much of their past had emerged over the years, especially during that transition period at Baz’s in Werribee. Yesterday at the bedside other elements were added. 

            For some reason the dope featured, arising from the music probably. The dope and music went together. Al had always advocated dope for raising writing too to another level. 

            Before the discovery of Robert Johnson there had been others in the line. The Doobie Brothers. (Doobie was slang for dope in the neighbourhood where the brothers came from.) The Shadows from the UK might have come before the Doobies. One of this pair had been pure instrumental.

            The Shadows’ “Apache” song or instrumental piece was an early marker; they were a British band. Carlos Santana, who had been born in a Mexican village, Baz said, had been the only guitarist in the early days over there who could play Apache. 

            Big Joe Williams lived in a caravan, carried a long-barrelled colt it may have been from the war and a switchblade. I’ve got the soul of a hobo, he said, in song no doubt. A white you might guess.

            From Big Joe and Woody Guthrie it had been a short step to jumping the freight trains near the bridge over the Maribyrnong River and riding a few mile into the North Melbourne yards, one notable mishap resulting in a badly cut knee for Al when he mistimed his jump. 

            Muddy Waters had come from the Stones. The Beatles in their earliest period too had been notable, surprisingly for these Blues guys as they turned out more fully formed.           Neither of them, Baz nor Al, had liked Jagger; they never got on that bandwagon, so didn’t need to get off when the Tory faker was exposed.

            Prior to leaving for the home Robert Johnson had been given a play on YouTube. Nothing again in it for this unatuned listener. Baz explained the line about jumping the freight train was from another song, not in fact Crossroads.

            The boys had played with Al’s older brother Rob and the Willy guy Peter Vincent on bass. Baz lead and Al the drummer. They had played at Baz’s place in Footscray and then later Al’s in Newport. Early stage for the drumming a 44 gallon oil drum had been adapted, the lid and handle on top serving for some kind of special effect. By the time they were done with music-making the lid of the drum had thinned to a wafer.

            The first meeting with Al had taken place in his early forties after his pancreas operation, long after those music days. Late late nights in the bungalow at Bab’s Al’s guitar came out muted from the back bedroom, the staccato plucking through an amp producing strange, enticing rhythms.

            The Nursing Home staff had let us sit undisturbed in the darkened room, Barry leaning forward in the lounge chair in the corner by the window. Earlier he must have brought the chair close. The Friday before when Baz had called, thinking the time then may have been narrowing, he had been found close by a doped Al in the common room holding his hand. 

            On the phone yesterday afternoon Baz had choked telling of the passing. Strangely, Baz had not informed his brother Tony of the death of their cousin. Tony, the oldest of the two pair of brothers, had in fact been the source of the musical awakening, playing records for Baz which were later shared with Al and Rob. One night in their shared bedroom at Footscray Tone had read Baz a passage from Dharma Bums, the Neale Cassidy book, Baz had called it. The signal opening that was to lead to decades of exploration for Al, works discovered that never made it into the official cultural canon. Before Al Playboy had been dismissed as pure titillation.

            Al had never mastered cursive script at school before he was expelled in the junior grades and Barry’s writing was similarly unformed. 

            They were a remarkable group the Ellis boys, with their particular Welsh, Jewish and Aboriginal heritage at least partly.


Monday, May 10, 2021

Mondays (Gurdjieff) Oct25


There was a kind of eagerness for the St. K. trip Monday mornings, over to the Glass Merchants first of all and then the Opp Shops. Glass M it was more usually than Wall or the Pole on Chapel corner. The staging at Wall was off-putting and as lunchtime neared the Pole was often struggling to contain patrons. After the cafe, newspaper & journal the Salvo pair in Carlisle Street was visited first of all, followed by the Windsor leg up Chapel Street and rounding back to Sacred Heart in Grey Street. At each of the shops the pre-loved products were artfully presented in the various sections, the feature vitrines at the counters in all four checked first of all, then books, clothes, footwear and oddments. One weekend years ago the Choir of Hard Knocks it might have been had rehearsed upstairs at Sacred Heart; more recently Dusty Springfield’s Stay Awhile had burst suddenly on the speakers there, when usually none of the shops played any music. In the past few months two books now from the Salvos had been read and 25 or 30 pieces from recent back issues of the LRB, which some kindly soul in Windsor was donating. One of the books was an entirely new discovery, Barry Dickins’ Unparalleled Sorrow. Having been immune to the kind of depression that ran through Dickins’ maternal side did not make that material any less interesting. Accidentally coming across such a wonderful, completely unheralded book was unusual for a life-long reader, especially one by a local author. A particular piece of Dickins’ newspaper columns had made a mark years before, but to find a book as captivating and powerful as this was a complete shock. How in the heck had something like that never come up on the radar and the publishing industry allowing it to go out of print? (The vow has been made to buy any copy of Unparalleled found and pass it round.) Two pair of sport shoes had come from the shops, as well as kitchen utensils & dish-ware. That Monday run and the other couple of regular outings to the fruit and veg stalls at Victoria Market Fridays & Saturdays have been the mainstays over these almost thirteen months. Outside Faisal’s café in Footscray, which had closed for Ramadan, there was almost nothing else, no other particular draw in this city. Some recent online sampling of Gurdjieff had rattled irritatingly in the brain. An incidental reference of some kind finally led to a little acquaintance with the old mystic. Proper honour and acknowledgement ought be given those worthy ones who had passed away, Gurdjieff suggested; but finally the past did need to be put aside. The point was a common one of course; in this instance the way it had been put presented a challenge.






Friday, April 30, 2021

Jesus’s Name


Re: we pray this in jesus name

 

As I said, I never saw Rudd doing it. Didna even know he was a Christian; no mention in any of the reportage I ever saw.

Yeah, in Oz to get that brand into the picture is some move alright, a leap. Just the invasiveness got me: getting the mush into the screen close-up. Too too close for comfort. That's not journalism. That's as you say marketing. Repulsive. The guy believes this/that, seriously, heart 'n soul, fair enough. But branding it like that. It's gotta be his own private phone, sitting angled on his desk. As bad as Jules Bishop fixing her hair & ear rings before a presser at the UN on China and Iraq. Far worse. How can you do prayer in front of a mirror? Bouncing it up to god via satellite?

 

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aPFxE4ykLZA

 

 

NB. Kevin Rudd was a former Australian PM. The current is a Pentecostal Christian.

An exchange with George who provided the Ytube.

 

Tuesday, April 27, 2021

Anarchy

 



St. George’s Road, Northcote.

If you manage to magnify, you’ll see the barely legible sign on the shop reads, MELBOURNE ANARCHIST CLUB.

Cycling yesterday with George, who’d had his eye on developments on that site for couple years.



Monday, March 29, 2021

West Wing (Fifth Visit)


Al was seated at the head of the corridor again, just by the door of his new room. Between times he must have been moved there. The door with his name on it with the floral border was closed and we didn’t enter this time. Stan in the chair on the other side turned out to be a Lancashire man. Soon after arrival his wife wheeled up and came over to chat; on the last visit she had also put in an appearance. At the time of their marriage she had been nineteen and Stan an especially handsome twenty-one, as the photos she brought over later proved. The wife herself was in for some respite, she said. Stan had been in the home a number of years. There had been a tragic suicide of the son in his early forties; a daughter had three children, two autistic and one with Aspergers. One of these, or one of the great-grandkids possibly, was a high achiever and worked in robotics. Stan had been a footballer and cricketer, as well as lawn bowler here in Australia. Out near Manchester the wife had been a member of an operatic group and the pair met at church. Al would not have heard any of it, nor been much interested if he had even years past. He sat in the corner of the couch eating the grapes that had been brought in. By the desk of the attendant Doris the jabberer sat facing away with a pair of dolls with her in her chair. She was giving the woman a hard time directing the unceasing stream in her direction. Later she made a number of us laugh when she told the woman to get fucked. At one point the poor Filipina, the attendant, came around the front of the desk to wipe the dolls with a wet cloth for some reason and then dry them for Doris. None of this was noticed by Al. The Australian had seemed a better option than The Age and Al leafed through it reading a number of the columns on a number of the pages. The Business pages he had discarded. Later he leafed through the journal that happened to have been left on the side table, finding some amusement in the description of old Trevor, the tedious bore at Cirino. In the passage Trevor had been described both as a corpse on his feet and a walking ghost. This seemed to have been part of the amusement for Al, who was already near the half way mark of the nine months the doctors at Footscray had given him. The old Nonna who wheeled up during the visit must have been new, just arrived at the home. Coming up close to the couch she had surprised initially. At first she spoke in an Italian that was not understood. Reverting to English, she said she wanted a seat on the couch. Classical sweet old thing. With a little pressing she took a few of the grapes. For the most part she sat looking at Doris and listening to her, grave and stony-faced, shaking her head slowly. In the photos by Doris’s door up near the end of the wing she and her husband looked a fine young Italian couple in what may have been a wedding portrait. The old Nonna either knew, or assumed Doris to be Italian. She spoke to her a couple of times in answer to some of the rattle. The room at the end of the wing on Al’s side of the corridor, opposite Doris up toward the street, held a figure in the bed that was all jaw. There was nothing else, just protruding jaw. The head on the pillow with the sheets up high was tilted far back and the jaw bone pointed at the ceiling. Three Filipinas, two Indians and an African were attending on this visit. The strange thing was the minor kind of shock at the scene. In fact there had been more than a little light-heartedness. It may have been different had Al been more alert.


Thursday, March 11, 2021

Hatred Justifiable (Third Visit) May26



Textbook horror story, perfectly routine. When they are unfurled like that before your eyes it’s like some cruel joke that you need to endure to the end, before the flimsy put-on is conceded. The lady clinging to her husband in the corridor, holding tight and hurting him, he said. Just a week and I’ll come back to take you home. From her room across the way Mira wandered in jabbering in Serbo-Croat. (Silence reigned ordinarily from the rooms with their colourful stickers of occupants’ names.) A Chinaman in his chair was slobbering food from his bowl. Attendants passed alert and cautious; complaints came from visitors of your kind. (You wrote friend at the desk. Later it would dawn no friends ever visited here.) Even after almost a fortnight the recognition was instantaneous. Again, like last time at the hospital, the plums and grapes were consumed quickly, greedily, almost half of what had been brought. Somehow the newspaper & ciggies had been forgotten. At that Al punched the air in that old time way of the theatre, swinging his fist laterally close to his chest with some force. One fine moment came at Al’s disgust at the Hearld Sun, which had been fetched from the common room. I hate that paper. HATE it. Again, forceful. You know I never bought it at the supermarket when they didn’t have The Age. The man was still present; still in attendance. It was great to see. The African Mobility Captain got a serve for his rough handling, very likely audible in the corridor where he passed. A recent negligent shave had left one of Al’s sideburns an inch and a half longer than the other.





Saturday, March 6, 2021

Publication news: “Up & Down the Tube” — Fleas On the Dog


Hello, hello

Hoping this finds everyone well in the rush of 21, and hopefully the back-end of the Corona.

A publication to announce. Here is a pair of politico micros penned late last year, just published by a punchy Canadian outfit called “Fleas On the Dog.” (It's worth reading their brief review in the intro of recent Canadian short-listed lit. prize contenders.)

“Up & Down the Tube” presents a couple of email responses to a friend’s online surfing—one featuring a notable US historian (canned by Trumpet) and the other that awfully strange species of English Tory that one catches in The House of Lords.


Here is the link—

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Or


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Cheers & zdravo

Pavle