Thursday, May 2, 2024

The Deaf’s Mourning

 

Already 3 up at the market library, congenial among all the earnest Chinese students, never mind the fin/marketing. En route Huss had detained outside the pokies. A few minutes earlier Faisal had revealed the Deaf’s mother’s recent passing, killed in fact after what F. had assumed had been a drug deal gone wrong. The punch Faisal did have right; out on the street Huss knew the fuller details. There he was leaning against a pole with a can in hand. Not a drug deal here; rather a man walking a dog had done for the poor woman. She was a real… (bitch), Huss hesitated to voice properly. Some kind of nasty exchange assumed. SMASH, into her; fallen dead on the spot. It, the passing, had had a positive effect on the Deaf, her son; opened his heart, Huss remarked. A two-handed gesture on his chest illustrating the point. See there!… The tall, lanky lad was coming along as we spoke. See how he’s walking... The long, swinging, exaggerated gait had been seen before in the Deaf, but that might have been since his mother had passed. 3 - 4 months before the lad had punched and kicked her, sending the woman to the ground just opposite Faisal’s, along that same strip. She’s in heaven now. God had wanted her, Huss added looking upward, contrite after his earlier sharpness. The tail end was a muddle about idioms. One that Huss had never been able to understand slipped; the other we discussed briefly. Saved by the bell. The gloss Huss was given on it left the man unsatisfied. In fact he had heard the expression dated from a period of strife in France; not war, something else where they were killing their own people. During the burials following these killings some of the supposed corpses were found to be alive; eventually a sentry with a bell was stood by the grave-diggers. Faisal always delivered any notable news promptly. Lunch had been taken at his place every day that week, his wonderful fuul; it was possible the death of the Deaf’s mother had only just gotten out, at least to Faisal. Or else it was the Deaf’s presence outside the shop when the bill was being settled that prompted the information from some days past.
 

Sunday, April 28, 2024

Cigarettes & Running

 

Old rocker (your junior) by Lt Collins bouncing on his heels, cowboy hat, bristle, fair look-a-like of Ukrainian Vlad, entertaining himself first of all.
— I killed desire with cigarettes…
Might be a standard of the repertoire, fair chance. We all know what he means, of course.
In his late-20s the painter Si Brisbane had explained that his running provided a means of coping with sexual frustration.


Thursday, April 25, 2024

Gallipoli (ANZAC Day 2024)

 

The Hari Krishna strangely closed today; supper would need to be taken elsewhere. On Swanston they hadn’t wanted to intrude on proceedings. Numerous of their nationals had of course been herded to the front lines, both wars. The well-known recourse all over. Serving lunch Faisal had quipped, You didn’t go to the march?… With the butchers? Man had gone on to suggest the Brits had been displacing Palestinians from their territories from way back. It long story, Faisal added. Perhaps the finer detail was not quite right; indoors Faisal was challenged later. The day before the PM had been up in Papua walking the track, with the hosting PM (seeking aid) in his golf shoes—an enthusiast, the latter. Our man was shod in sensible hiking boots. 15km on well-defined track now. Stories on the heroism as usual in the lead up, retailed in the newspaper by the local amateur historians.



Sunday, April 21, 2024

Free To Look

 

— Excuse me. I don’t want to be rude in any way. Would you have any change, please?
         How possibly to rebuff such petition when you did have the desired in your pocket? A creased and worn old girl like her.
         When a brass dollar was brought up with the silver 50c, it needed to be both.
         A chap on Swanston sitting against a shop window near the library kept bare-chested these wintry days & nights too. In his late-40s or 50s, thin, yellowed folds of flesh over his midriff. One arm had been amputated right the way up by his shoulder, where the nub had the flesh bundled together and roughly sewn. A blinker, sheepish, something of the shy canine suggested.
         One could bypass such figures with minor wincing, like footage of devastation on the screen. Rather more easily too when the eyes were never met.



Tuesday, April 16, 2024

Gavrilo P. April 2024

 

Sixteen, not fifteen, now reported the young attacker of the Assyrian Bishop in Sydney. Last 24-48 hours an intention to check how old was Gav Princip at the time of Ferdinand's assassination. Turned out twenty; he was executed four years later. And how much evidence did the young Gavrilo have of Austro-Hungar atrocities against the Serbs through his young adulthood? On his way to introduce his new wife to the family up in the village at Boka, circa 1938, Uncle Jovo, a gendarme commander in the Lika, went to visit the monument to Gavrilo in Sarajevo.


Friday, April 12, 2024

Publication news: Soekarno-Hatta Hanging

 Hello all



Another Aero publication of mine has just appeared, again from a while back - 2019, and again Airplane Reading in the States, edited by a long-time editor of New Orleans Review.

Under 500 words, centred on the international hub in Jakarta — highly swanky / soulless now.


All best to all
Pavle








Monday, April 8, 2024

Passing Muster


Numerous pretty young Asians footing along the upper end of Swanston near the library, with the peaks of their caps screening themselves on the nearer approach. By these means they managed to escape the more searing and unsettling examinations of their beauty. One among them this afternoon bore the clear sign of the ordeal on her crown, white upper case semaphoring:

    STOP
ANXIETY



Thursday, March 28, 2024

In-Store Now (revised late Mar24)


 

Rain     Drops

Keep Fallin’

On

My

Head

Followed by,

 

What the World — 

Needs              Now

 

Mid-afternoon Orchard Kinokuniya

For the notation the store pen was deployed. 

There had been rain in the morning and showers later, one distinct grenade of refreshing humus rising from the ground somewhere along the way. It may have been through the Haig carpark beneath a tree up on one of the  islands, when the path at the end was taken in order to avoid another pass of the funeral party of Hadramis at Block 11. Daunting that gathering; almost as bad as if they had been Palestinians.

In the case of the spattering of drops in the store the flesh of the brain seemed more exposed.

Before being able to make an exit, in the queue by the cashier, the original, unremastered What’s New, Pussy Cat? started up after a pause. 

Wow…..Wow-Wow…..Wow, wow.

There was a hidden speaker near-by. 

Stretching credulity one perfectly well understands. Entirely understandable. Nevertheless, such was the musical offering in close sequence that afternoon over the lazy heads of perhaps 8-10 dozen book-lovers absorbing without any noticeable twitch or shudder. 

In the standard rendition of the first the vocalist was unknown. Second was the Burt Bacharach and last the inimitable Tom, with his shirt unbuttoned to the navel and frilly panties raining down from all sides.

Nada. Not a flicker. Absorbed like candy, sweetmeats or sweet perfume.

And that was not the end of it either. More followed. 

There was delay in the queue with a lapsed Members’ Card at the counter, lady purchasing a stack of unidentifiable colourful titles, children’s series possibly. 

The Way We Die Now. And immediately adjacent in some kinda implicit pairing, When Breath Becomes AirFace out top shelf of the Highlights stand that made a large island in the passage. 

Bodilo oci, the Serbs say; pricking the eyeballs.

No doubt there was some good reason between the covers in the case of the books.

 

 

 

 

 

 

2.


This afternoon some lingering beneath a speaker in the ceiling of the stationery department at Kino. It had taken a while locating with the volume turned down and the voice riding the hubbub. At first the sound seemed to be coming from a hidden recess in the ceiling; some light emitted from beyond the little ledge above the notebook stand there too. Later a second speaker in the same aisle was found turned off. Thought had been after the KV lunch and print at Peace Centre, a quick reconnoiter for a volume of old Tu Fu—sometimes confusingly rendered as Du Fu, the poor girl at the info desk needed to be informed. There was nothing of David Hinton’s translations; that had been established couple weeks before. Only his Analects and I Ching, both previously purchased. Some hope that the largest bookstore of English holdings, at least in SE Asia, might turn up the Tang star. TuF had been rendered by a couple of previous notables—fair chance you might have thought in Sin’pore, steady sales ticking over. Kinokuniya had been downsized few years before, usual victims involved. If you were after motivational, entrepreneurial, investment gurus, biz management & strategy, conservative histories, mysteries, colouring-in books, comics, celebrity, cook books, photography, design, more photography & design, you had come to the right place, all cards accepted at the register. The great helmsman LKY’s shelves alone could not have been sent up in smoke with less than three molotovs, not a chance, forget it. Man was hardly dead, only symbolically & figuratively. (The feud between the PM and his younger sister & bro over accusations of political exploitation in the use of the father of the nation’s passing had been hosed down of late, all hush-hush in-family.) They had stocked Tu Fu once upon a time; sold out now, lass conveyed. She could not be quizzed on the history—it was not possible to punish innocents for the sins of the elders. No. Too bad. Good selection of gel pens in stationery, including 0.8s at $3.10, comparable to ArtFriend and Popular. On the shelves there among all the inferior biros and all the soft pastel colour varieties, in the midst of parents with their children, out of thin air, one was suddenly hallowed by Pavarotti early signatures. First, like a TV flowering of a orchid hidden in the jungle, O Sole Mio’s rhythmic swelling. It was followed immediately after by Ritorno a Soriento. Shiver one on top of the other. Brrrh! Brrrh! Here was a chance to show the locals one’s cultivated taste, almost word for word with the big man and phrasing perfect. The little jail-bait schoolgirl’s mum might have had entirely the wrong idea. Strange in the Asian (more or less) locale, receiving those melodies, those exhalations from the great bellows. The fact the maestro had been dead all these years now perhaps added feeling, gone the way of Caruso, Lanza, Bjorling; &etc. That short stretch of water from the bays of Boka over to Bari, down to Brindisi, Sicily and up on the other side, Napoli. They could have Sorrento, skip that joint. Thirty-five years ago there had been no malls in Napoli; in the old town near the water there would be none now. Minimum of ornamental trees and shrubs. The mafia there would be a sight better than the entrenched tropical kind that could not be ousted from the political stage for the next hundred years. There was almost as much street prostitution in Napoli as Geylang; no fool would pay for indoor theatre. Fascinating. Fourteen or sixteen hours away for little over a grand. With the usual shuttering for the morning during Ramadan, it had been Starbs for the early cafe & scribble. As the customers piled into the OneKM outlet nearing lunchtime, the volume had gone up on the pitter-patter remastered golden oldies & prairie ballads. That flustering and churning in the guts had something to do with the effect a few hours later of big Lucy standing tall. 


 

 

                    Kinokuniya, Singapore 

 


Saturday, February 17, 2024

Publication news: “Minus 41 & 35k Feet” - Airplane Reading

 Hallo & zdravo all


Another US publication to announce, this one a short-short in an odd & interesting online magazine called Airplane Reading, which is devoted to the experience of air travel. One of the editors here is an aerophobe like myself.

Freely accessible, 660 words. Hope you find something in it.


http://airplanereading.org/story/4971/minus-41-35-000-feet



Best to all
Pavle 


Sunday, February 11, 2024

Publication news: The Heart of the Matter - QU Lit Mag

 Hallo & zdravo all


Announcing now another US publication, this time at Charlotte, North Carolina, where MFA students & faculty curate the mag.

The middle piece in “The Heart of the Matter” was first drafted 12 years ago, within a few weeks of first discovering my corner of Singapore. Another cat piece that opens comes from early ‘23.

QU Literary Magazine, V.19 Winter 2023-24

The mag also comes in print form, US$10 for any passionate paper people. Otherwise the link below. 

A trio of 2.5k words in total. Hope you like it.


http://www.qulitmag.com/the-heart-of-the-matter/


Pavle



Thursday, February 1, 2024

Surfeit

 

There might come a tipping point one particular day after one too many billboards, advertisements, placards & tees that send you tailspinning, especially with passers-by merging indistinguishably and store manikins even in thrift shops.


Thursday, January 25, 2024

Categorical


How tellingly she had used the phrase. You can describe it like that now; back then it was just another example of her other-worldly rattle, that bizarre, mystifying flow of hers that erupted in talk with her compatriots. Čovječe božji! Creature of god. Male; man of god. Within a conversation or tale of some kind being related it concerned a person who ought to have known better, one who had said or done something beyond bounds, transgressed the code and needed to be pulled up. A strong caution. Of course there was none better than herself for that kind of task; she knew all the ways about it. The indiv concerned had pretty much demeaned himself, plainly. It was invariably a man in question. Women were not prone to suchlike; they had learned to be much more circumspect. (Although in her own case she herself was a blabberer; lajava, as she confessed, used usually for a dog. “Barking mad” had entered the Oz vernacular in recent years.) A man of the right sort, enlightened and knowing, could never have slipped like that; there was always a standard implied. Bog stobom! God be with you! Following some other like faux pas or error that ought to have been abundantly clear. Reading Annie Ernaux on her parents and anticipating further jousting with Zdravun, the lexicographer for our old tongue up in the village, the phrase came back late in the night, bringing her energetic person back close. It could be deployed against Z; the little blast would ring for him nicely; his head too was full of those voices from the past. And it was marvellous to throw him some curved balls from way out in the field. Made in god’s image was implied too. Even rude mountain people could be included in that cohort, finally.

  

 

 

 

2. 

In this case an expression that was never heard uttered by anyone other than herself. Most certainly. It was not a deeply condemnatory charge; some level of jest was involved. Will-less, literally. Nevoljo. Volja was will or desire. (The root of volition was impossible to believe connected to those times and in that alpine locale.) Nevoljo jedna. Will-less one. Used of the faint-hearted and hesitant. Of course the one making the accusation stood far outside anything like that; nothing of the sort. Bab’s father was a force; firm, manly, judicious. Before his father died he had had a year or two preparing for the priesthood. Three of his daughters at least amply partook of bold volja; will. Strength of character in effect. (In the case of the son George, something perhaps a tad lesser applied.) Bab didn't seriously berate victims with willessness; rounded on them rather, encouraging something better. A father like that in a handful of photos that came down meant the husbands of his girls would need very much to be on their mettle. Even standing before the new apparatus, the man holds himself perfectly steady; poised and calm. Nevoljo jedna; fem, but fitting either gender. Some little pride obtained in the lineage, especially when there was no harshness, no caustic abrasiveness. Those Savici could be sharp and acerbic, but they were always understanding and sympathetic. One did however need to bestir oneself; there was no two ways about that.  

  

                     *

 

Annie Ernaux suggests the telling phrases repeated by the elders, the sharp, biting ones, stuck more strongly in memory than their faces.


 

 3.

Jadi te ne nasli ko sto su te nasli. Commonly, routinely deployed. But again local argot almost certainly (from the far side of the world it was impossible to know whether it had any currency further a field across the hill villages). Hardship not find you as it has (indeed) found you. Berating. Berating itself was common in many various forms, a daily occurrence; with her high standards one never came up to the mark. And of course transplanted as the speech was from far different ground, it was a poor fit on the other shore. Again, no doubt because of the separation from the village community, which had essentially disintegrated back there by that point in time, the words were never heard from anyone other than herself, that unique, bizarre creature so long in her black scarf and widow’s weeds. (Occasionally Russian or Polish crones a few streets away matched the garb.) Hardship and grief was everywhere waiting, hovering and ready to strike. One was inescapably in the midst; we ourselves had been notable victims of its savagery. You better know it, better watch out for your head. Nemoj da te jadi nebi nasli; Don’t lest ill finds you out (as it has found). So easy to fall victim. Ultimately it was inevitable. 

 




4.

This now was certainly not ever uttered by herself. In her time up in the karst it could not have been thought, much less spoken. (Felt of course was another matter; our people went in deep like all others, perhaps a tad deeper.) We had a house guest recommended to us, a friend of a friend. German young woman from Stuttgart, with a Montenegrin boyfriend back home. Later it emerged the pair had fallen into the drug net and A was keen to distance herself from the fellow. Australia was an opportunity. In time the local Greek pharmacist would take a fancy and A married and became a mother. Oz residency, financial security, never looked back. Back in Stuttgart the boyfriend called the house phone regularly. This was over thirty years ago, well before mobiles. Bab took a number of his calls as more and more A was not around to do so. After one such call Bab had reported something the chap had said. (Memorably, of the young woman), Volim je vise nego sve sto ocima vidim. Gone in particularly deep this fellow, head over heels. I love her more than all my eyes see. Words dispassionately quoted by Bab. Delivering such a direct expression of feeling was highly striking; then her cool levelness added. No comment was passed on the speech. But there was sufficient need to repeat what the man had spoken, quite unasked. Of course Bab breathed not a word about young A’s absences. Likely she gave some reassurance, or at least conveyed nothing of concern. She knew her way around that too. It later emerged —a great surprise—that Bab had been a former beauty. Something that had been impossible to guess. It took some time to fully accept. A beauty who from mid-teens had had numerous suitors; who had a song penned about her; one who had broken an engagement before finding her ultimate match. The fiancé had been a gendarme hailing from over the border in Herzegovina, a fair kind of catch. When she gave the fellow the bad news he rounded on her, Ovo ce tebi sudit. This will pass judgement on you. The shooter in his holster. Many of the men and women up in the hills were famously fearless, courageous and reckless. Bab was one prime example. None up on Village Uble, or very likely any of the higher hill settlements—refuge locales from the Ottoman Turks in fact—would have used such language as the Stuttgart guy. The Stuttgart guy was of course the younger generation, living a radically different life influenced by the love songs on the radio and cassettes. How easily the old woman, already beyond her mid-70s, the heart attack she would survive shortly ahead, how simply she had fielded the young man’s ardour. Bab had never used the verb volim in her life. Love or like both in one it was, depending on context. Bab had never uttered the name of her son, always calling him by some odd reference of her own, a practice perhaps adopted from her superstitious mother. Ernaux again, quoting Proust, — Never say anything, never show too much love. Bab had not been in need of that tuition from books; that elementary knowledge arrived of itself up at those thunderous stony heights.

 

 

 

Thursday, January 18, 2024

Publication news: Bystand & Soho in Sing — Of Zoos

 Hallo & zdravo all



Announcing a publication up in Singapore, another with the guys at Of Zoos, where a couple of my other pieces have appeared in the last few years.

The longer prose-poem here, Bystand, is recent work; Soho in SG goes back 7-8 years. There is a great deal of Sing work remaining in the drawer that I am hoping to bring to light in the next while.

Free online, 900 & 500 words. Hope you like ‘em.

Best to all
Pavle 










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